I believe in miracles.
I try to change the world every day.
I love my husband, my friends, and my family.
I plan my next great adventure constantly.
I think most occasions call for a dress.
I write what I know and believe.
It’s unreal how the symbolic turning of the calendar gave much such immense gratitude, but truly I was so glad to welcome 2018. I might have cried at midnight. If you want me to explain why, I will not be able to. I just needed to let all the emotion that has been welling up inside of me out. I did, and I was ready for January 1, 2018.
The beginning of a new year is always marked by college applications, and this year is no exception. It’s been moreso than usual since I’ve been the college advisor at one of my schools. IN the six years that I’ve been doing this, colleges have moved their deadlines, which helps prevent the common application from crashing, but it also creates more deadlines and makes the application process longer for me. Typically, by now, most applications (but for January 15 deadlines) would be done, allowing a bit of respite. No such luck this year.
Yet, in spite of all the work, I’m feeling good-ish. I was finally able to leave the house this week. I went to a HIIT class and a yoga class. I started a new calendar. And, I finished my 101 in 1001 list, thanks to encouragement from Brianne and Stephanie. Since I don’t journal the same way I used to, I don’t make resolutions. I tried to do something different last year and choose a word of the year, and it lasted three months. Still, I liked the intentionality of it. (No pun intended.) The word that kept coming back to me for 2018 was balance. I initially laughed at myself for even entertaining that idea. I’m terrible at balance, and I think everyone who reads here knows that.
Yet, at some point this week, I realized that balance isn’t achieving the perfect life. It’s living by one of the quotes I loved in college.
“You have to take the good with the bad, smile with the sad.
Love what you’ve got, and remember what you had.
Always forgive, but never forget.
Learn from your mistakes but never regret.
People change, things go wrong, but just remember life goes on.”
So, all of these things (acknowledging that days come with highs and the lows, recognizing that we’re all perfectly imperfect, and that sometimes the best and only thing we can do sometimes is try), is part of balance. To that I say…
(may you involve balance)
(In the spirt of balance, my 101 in 1001 list is divided up into sections and oddly ended up fairly balanced itself. This wasn’t intentional First W of the year? I’ll take it.)
As I look back on my 2017 wrap up post, I can’t help but feel disbelief at everything that has happened this year. In some ways it’s gone so fast and in others, it feels so slow. This year might have been my most challenging from a professional stand point. It was marked by personal, professional accomplishments as well though. The word of 2017 was deliberate, and while that sounded good… I’m not sure how well it worked out. Let’s see, shall we?
We spent our 4th anniversary in Venice and Prague after finding a cheap ticket. The morning after arriving home, I left for NACAC where I co-presented with two amazing women and heard the best mic drop moment with “Wealth doesn’t equal knowledge.” (THE mantra for 2017-2018!) I also was quoted in The Atlantic on a piece that would later result in the testing agencies doing the right thing (next year).
Usually when I look back at these posts, I feel so much good (like I did with the 2016 wrap up). This year, however, it is exactly what this year felt like – tumultuous, anxiety-ridden (apparently I’m not the only one), and stressful. I’m not sorry to see 2017 come to a close.
I will say that I could not have made it through 2017 without reading Steph’s consistent posts about the state of the world. She helped me feel that I was not alone in my rage, in my frustration, or in my feelings. She found ways to mobilize humans, encourage the goodness of humanity, and give words to issues that I could not. She’s one of my very favorite bloggers – and that has been the only constant for 2017.